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There are two people in my life this year that I have began to shake off. I feel that both of these people take from me and never give in return. I have put in an enormous amount of effort into both of these people but they just can’t or won’t do the same. I am tired of feeling as if I am not really liked, or that I am being used or that they could care less. And it’s not about me being paranoid, because I have several friends and none of them make me feel like these two people me feel.

It’s sad too, because one of these friendships is over 20 years old. But I have cried, begged, coddled and pleaded as much as I can and for as long as I can. So now, through the wisdom of prayer and just the peace you get from letting go, I have learned that when I say No to letting these people make me feel this way I am saying yes to myself and that is exactly what I intend to do from this point on. I have now reached a new decade in my age and I feel like that too is bringing change and wisdom to my life as well, I am so grateful for change, aren’t you?

I am finally catching the hint that these friendships have ran their course and it’s time to move on. Thank the lord that I am finally moving, because even though I knew what was happening I still was holding on and that was just making it ugly for everybody. I am not a fair weather friend, I am loyal and dependable and to a fault at times, my relationships with people I love are very important to me. So it has been a hard and long journey getting to the place that I am in now, but I am happy to be here. I don’t have any hard feelings, it was a great run and now your season is over, I can’t wait to see what the next one will bring. Whatever it is, I will be sure to bring the lesson I learned from this season to the next one. It would be a shame to have done all of that in vain.

Take it & love it
Kendraplease!

Below is a sermon by Bishop TD Jakes, it’s exactly what I needed and maybe it might just help you too.

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you,
loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying
attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us.[1John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.

It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you! u have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level
in Him......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help
themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........

LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. God is doing a new thing…. Let It Go!!!

I know you all heard the news about poor Heath Ledger right? He died at age 28 from what police are calling an accidental overdose. Geez, that’s scary stuff. Why are so many celebrities into drugs? I just don’t understand it. I mean, I understand that access to them is much easier then if you were just the average Joe, but history tells us a lot about drug addiction in Hollywood, drug addicted celebrates almost always die from their addiction and usually when their young and in their prime.

My question is this: Is fame to much from some folks? Does the fame make you turn to drugs or were you pre wired to have addiction issues prior to being famous & Hollywood just made it that much easier? Who knows, but I truly believe that when someone decides to make entertainment their profession, there should be some sort of disclaimer that can be given about stardom, because it comes with a lot of unhealthy side effects. Hum, I am thinking when you sign your signature on the contract for your first big role it should have disclaimer that reads something like this.

WARNING;
Stardom can come with powerful side effects, please consult you doctor immediately if you notice any of the following symptoms:
Eating disorders, excessive partying, alcoholism, drug addiction, sex addiction, cosmetic surgery addiction, star bucks addiction, public drunkenness, annulled marriages, excessive marriages, body morphing disorder, suicide, losing site of what’s important, an alarming gain of fake friends, gambling problems, loss of contact with family members, too much makeup application, not enough makeup application, obesity, sunburn, cancer, joining the church of Scientology, having sex with Brittney Spears, mental health problems, hit & runs, breast enlargement, adoption of babies that aren’t adoptable, dating married people, overdose, accidental overdose, bankruptcy, overly whiting your teeth, ownership of animals that can kill you, marrying someone 20 years your senior, waking up in your own vomit, sleeping with Hue Heffner, being stalked, losing the limelight, steroid use, being killed by a stingray, plane crashes, exposed sex tapes, appearing on the Surreal life, wearing ugly clothes, a deviated septum and/or death.

But then again, we all think it will never happen to us right? Unfortunately, were just humans, none of us are any better then the other, we all have short comings and all of us can slip at anytime. I mean, we all have vices, yours maybe drugs, mine may be partying, hers maybe eating, the point is to just watch yourself; if you use drugs they can potentially kill you. Remember what history has taught us. There is nothing wrong with just simply saying no thank you. My prayers are with the Ledger family & friends, may God show them the way and grant them peace during this trying time.

Take it & love it

Kendraplease

I was on my home from the club Saturday night when I saw something I had never seen before. I had just dropped off one of my girls and I saw a set of animal eyes in my headlights. Then, outta of nowhere some other car whipped in front of me and almost ran the creature over. I noticed that the small animal didn't move, I thought that was odd so I pulled up next to the little creature. OMG, it was a possum! Now, usually I wouldn't have cared and probably would have just kept driving but the possum was behaving in a way that caught my attention. Not to mention that this possum was really big! Definitely larger then a house cat!

So, I pulled up right next to him and realized that the possum appeared to be choking on something. His mouth was wide open and he kept pacing in a circle. For a minute I thought the damn thing was playing me because you know, he's a possum and he could have been "playing possum" So like a idiot I cracked my window and yelled out to try and district him from his very convincing show that he was putting on...me yelling to him at 2am didn't even seem to phase him. This little guy really was dying...yikes.

I turned on my brights and that's when I noticed the poor little guy was really suffering. It was horrible, I was in shock, I wanted so badly to help him and yet I felt completely helpless. It was 2 or so in the morning, I was by myself and I didn't know if he would try and bite me or if had any diseases or what he would do if I were to approach him, so I sat there in my car and watched this poor fellow suffer, I basically was watching him die. Now by no means am I one of those tree hugging, paint slinging, fur ruining, no meat eating do-gooders but I do love animals and this just made me feel really bad, I mean awful.

After what felt like hours of watching the possum he started to lay down on his side as if he was giving into death and subcoming to his fate. For some odd reason I began to get scared so I left. I drove home and woke my husband up and told him what I saw. He didn't seem to be too interested and rather bothered that I woke him...hmm, Nerve!

Anyway, I woke up the next morning and the gray little possum was all I could think about, (I find this very odd that the possum affected me this way) anyway, I had my husband drive me back to the place that I saw the possum to see what had happen to him, he wasn't there!!! Everything in my soul rejoiced! I had not been a witness to the loss of life after all...today will be a good day! And then my sweet husband says (in a very loving voice "there he is honey, he's dead I am sorry") And there he was, a few feet away from where I had last seen him, he must have struggled for a little longer after I left.

I sighed hard and we turned around and went home. Again, I have no idea why this upset me the way it did, but this left me with a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I should have done something besides watch. All living things are just that, living things, we all deserve more then to spend are last moments alone in the dark and cold dying a horrible death. I am still not sure what killed that little guy because there was no blood. I wish I had more to report but honestly, that's where the story ends.

Take it & love it
Kendraplease